its all the same

<3

2004-08-11T23:24:08Z

i got a new livejournal name
it is- tangytang

and yes its cool.
add me back guys.

lol. im retarded.

2004-08-11T00:32:48Z

lol. i laughed at that.
warped tour- 1 week, 1 day away after tonight
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet

o and, i went into a chat room today. and kids were singing fall out boy. i wore them out pretty fast. lol. oh well. petes still a cutie, but patricks voice just eck goes thru me sometimes. gr.

from mandies journal

2004-08-09T22:29:50Z

Three things that scare me:
1: heights
2: horror movies
3: crazy scientists with extra toes

Three people who make me laugh:
1: hillary
2: caley
3: kyle

Three Things I love:
1: green jello
2: ska
3: the beatles

Three Things I cant stand:
1: ocean avenue
2: tweets restaurant
3: drama queens

Three things I don't understand:
1: people
2: halo
3: du rags

Three things on my desk:
1: stapler
2: sharpie
3: warped tour ticket

Three things I'm doing right now:
1: zoning out. tired.
2: talking to alan
3: listening to queen.

Three things I want to do before I die:
1: no clue.

Three things I can do:
1:
2:
3:

Three words to describe my personality:
1: spork
2: quirky
3: lime

Three things I can't do:
1: sing
2: clean windows
3: match my clothes

three cheers for sweet revenge

2004-08-08T16:03:39Z

so we had fun last night. in a 5*5 two person tent on a random island. lol.

[bass]
[julie]
[jay]
[caley]
[mike]

i sat at the picnic table for a while there. cuz u kno, kyle was being silly and there was no room in our tent so eventually i went over there and i was like "guys..?" lol. i love them. all in all it was a fun night tho. things were tense at first, but we all eased up and had a good time. heard some shitty maxa music. lol. jk. umm.. mike snores. AND THAT ABOUT SUMS UP THE NIGHT! oh and jenna wright man shes the bomb. she saved us all from starvation. I WANT YOUR SCREENAME! lol. im such a computer nerd. today me and jimmy and smitty and kyle are hanging out. and then im going to dun dun dunnnn caleys house! campfire with smores! better get there for sunset! heh. well im going to go. shower. clean myself as if its a daily project. sorry guys i cant hang out ive got to clean..my..self

and we heard some fobolous in daves car
yeah.. i know that song.. =)

she dont need no body to be her man

2004-08-05T04:38:43Z

hey guys. kindof bored now. caleys away. kyle just signed off cuz hes a dumb drunk bastard. isnt life grand? just talking to jimmy. hes pretty dumb. maybe one day he'll be smarter. or just act smarter. id love to see that day. haha. yeah right. i downloaded a bunch of songs today. avenged sevenfold, atreyu, senses fail, ect. the first two cos i heard some songs at kyles i liked. yeah. so tomorrows thursday- guess me and caley are hanging out with jordan and alan. bastards. lol. jk. you guys like the new layout? be sure to comment sweetie cheeks.

HOW COME!
and how come your a skank
oh, i wish i had boobs like you.
lol. caley. what fun one's can have at a bustop eh. lol.

ummm ..i love my moosiqa. which is max.
maxwell jarvis. hes wicked cool. dont mess. lol.
and his sister. that red headed jew. forgot her name again.lol.

oh and thank you so much rimma.
your the best. wicked talented. mwah.

Julie

we <3 richard.

2004-08-01T04:15:41Z

lol. richard is the coolest. smitty ditched us for grain, that drug addict. haha. oh well. me jay mike and caley had fun. we slept with richard. we stayed up all night. maybe thats why we thought everything was so funny.

"rudolf, we know why your nose is red"
"why? is it magic?"
"no. you have a tumor. im sorry."
"is it a magical tumor?"
"no, its cancerous."
"is it a specia--"
"YOU'RE GONNA DIE!"

"bletchtk"
"fluninuninabe"
"lamb of god"
"biocube"

haha. im much to lazy to type alot more.
i hung out with mandie and eli and carolyn today at the mall.
got the new tbs cd. pretty good. got a pretty alice in wonderland pin and a brand new pin. i love them. watched that hilary duff movie. kindof typical. but hey, what do you expect for "A CINDERELLA STORY" . lol. i love them all. and mike and jay and caley. and gerry and dave. hung out with them. and .. yeah. my mommy cos shes gonna develop my film. which consists of alot of pictures of full out humpage from mike. hey mom, meet mike. [mike mike?] yes mom. mike from the pictures. lol. i can see that conversation one day. lol. bye.

so yeah.

2004-07-30T08:31:20Z

wow. its um, 422. im a wicked fag. i was talking to this kid dustin i met for a while, and then kyle randomly signed on at 3. and was like. wtf? ok. so today i.... dont even remember. oh yeah. took the bus to bristol with caley and hung out with mike and richard. mikes so awesome, i love mike. hes so down to earth. and richards u know.. cool.. too. he loves us.

oh so the next summer concert series is one i am actually going to have pleasure going to. lostprophets, midtown, and montys fan club. we were listening to handy with a steel today. i like that song alot. but i wont put it in my profile. u know why? cuz caley said i was going to. therefore i cant. lol.

i have school in 3 and a half hours. thats cool. guess im staying up all night. oh well. i guess we're going to the second day of warped tour. gerry and dave want to bring us. cuz dropkicks playing. and ltj and midtown and pennywise. and caley wanted to see the vandals and hot rod circuit. gotta dl some of their songs. i heard one. decent i think.

wow this entry has nothing to do with anything but caley huh. thats sad. why dont a few of you hang out with me more, yeah maybe thatd uh.. be cool. or ool. haha. psycho midget chasing me! julie no! we're not going to.. AH! GET AWAY! haha. jaelyn.. get away. im not hungry. lol. shes psycho. jaelyn be like wyatt. and allison. allisons cute. your just dumb. lol. yeah so. gaylen huh. lol.poor kid.

this entrys so pointless. its great. shows how much i do a day. tomorrows that shin dig at bens. then im sleeping in undisclosed regions. and then waking up and going to elis party thing. yeah thats cool. free movie. i want to see my chemical romance that night if anyone wants to go. 8 bucks at the call. yup. so, bye. love you guys.

jewls2189 @ 2004-07-28T11:07:00

2004-07-28T15:07:35Z

___heartbrake

credit to her. for the icon.

count to ten- wonderful again

2004-07-28T02:28:21Z

i like caleys away message.it reads:
"They can. They will. They're planning it as you speak. They aren't what you want. They're every horror, every little thing you've been against. They've got every moment rehearsed like a bad highschool tragedy.You know all this and do nothing to stop it. If you say you didn't, you're wrong. It's all there, subconsciously. Despite that fact the reaction is still the same. Overplayed and Dramatic like the television you watch. We're all living life one episode after another, and when it's over, what's left is the reruns played by the new cast that's born. The next generation."
shes so clever, that caley nassar.

me and mandie had a good conversation last night. mandies one of those open people. you can just talk to her.

ive decided that im going to kauai after high school. ill fit in there, with the palm trees and daffodils. it seems like such a reclusive, beautiful place. i think ill like it. you always hear about the people that just get up and leave and you never hear from them again, the exact opposite of the people who stay in one place for their entire lives. like bristol. bristol's nice, but i think id rather feel like im on a permenant vacation. meet some nice hawaiian boy. thatd be cool. everclear songs make me think of things like this. so blame everclear.

"we can live beside the ocean,
leave them far behind.
swim out past the breaker,
watch the world die."

skanky yankee

2004-07-27T02:18:45Z

ahaha. i never told you all about this great brawl on saturday. bronson arroyo threw a pitch that hit alex-imababy-rodrigues on the elbow. then arod starts yelling FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU! to arroyo. yea, cause u kno. god forbid he throw a stray pitch. so vartitek [the sox pitcher] tells him to stfu. arod gets in his face and tells him to "come on" arod gets vari ina head lock.then gets lifted up and punched in the face! ahhaha. it was so great, cause then both teams filed onto the field. and a bunch of players were holding back ortiz but he shoved past them, and took down two yankees at once. red sox got no fines, penalties, or anything. sept ortiz he got 5 days suspension from someother thing. varitek beat the crap out of arod. and sturtz got his ass kicked cuz he choke held gabe kapler. i love red sox/yankee games. theres nothing closer to playoff environment and intensity than a red sox/yankees game. It's not hatred, it's an intense desire to beat the other team in a venue thats absolutely electric from pitch one. absolutely electric. and that my friends is why i love the red sox. fuck you yankee fans.

Boston Red Sox <3

jewls2189 @ 2004-07-25T12:15:00

2004-07-25T16:22:34Z

yeh. well u know, everyone keeps fighting. so im just going to say it. i looove caley and i really think that we should all just let this go. but u kno. iron willed fuck up, yep thatd be me. sorry.

everyone deserves to be happy.
everyone.

now shes crazier than john dupot

2004-07-23T18:26:55Z

for the next two hours i havent a thing to do. im supposed to wait til duane gets home to go out with caley ..date! lol. just kidding, we're going to everyones house, then having a camp out fire. yeah, its cool, shut up.

yesterday was the best day ever! yeah, almost. me and caley kept getting bitched at so we took a walk. and we were bums. then i think we went to . yeah, swansea. then it was off to that stupid concert for bru. yeah, we missed the entire thing except finger 11. they sucked. we just stood in a circle. [me, caley, mandie, and jimmy] and then we left. it was pure fun all day.

bye.

its pretty late.

2004-07-20T04:59:39Z

ive got to get up for school in about 6 hours. im always exhausted. yeah. so anyways. i was talking to smitty for a little while on the phone tonight, turns out its the new trend. lol, just kidding. you know.. gerry nutini will really be something someday. really something. me and smitty realized, dating isnt what it used to be. people now ask "will you go out with me" and they dont really mean go out, they mean date. back then if you wanted someone to be your girlfriend you'd ask her to go steady with you. which is weird cause things are so different now-- stupid generation, i hate you.

lol. im not good at transitions, so here we go into the next to topic. seth. seth balzano. hes a cutie. and he works with me, hes a waiter. at first i thought he was an asshole, cause he just didnt talk to anyone, that i saw. and then, i thought he was lazy, cause he was sitting down alot, but then, i thought he was gay! because he was talking about being a vegetarian and humming singing in the rain and whistling. i really dont know. whats it matter? hes still cute. lol, he talked to me. oh yeah long conversation.
seth: =[ aw. you threw out my soda.
me: oh im sorry it was on the table.
seth: OH JUST PLAYIN! ITS OK!

we're practically dating guys. he practically asked me out. we practically did a back seat windows up thats the way we like to --- cheerios. lol, big big bucket iddnt that right caley. lol, speaking of caley, i love caley. shout out to caley, cauuusee you kno, i didnt ditch her at kyles party [sh, no one cool was there] lol. just kidding. there were cool people. caley and jay played with maelyns plastic dishes while i played my version of pool and listened to the green album. before that, me, mandie, tiffany, rob, christina, and ashley were in the pool. and it was fun. i accidentally broke something. cant disclose it- kyles watching. dun dun.. kyle. i miss kyle. its 1 o clock, we're usually talking. but no, hes in NH, exxxxcuuuuusee mmeeee... pft.

well, im tired and gerry nutini and me are talking about fun stuff to talk about. yeah. welp, i hope you had fun reading this cause i had loads writing it. ashley got a job where i work. thats cool. me and mickey have a deal. thats cool. mickeys cool. yup. goodbye deary's.

yeah.

2004-07-19T17:11:25Z

i wish i had a secure group of friends.

hot vocals.

2004-07-17T00:59:14Z

meet Pete Wentz. first one. aint he cute?
and he's b-e-a-utiful

"so wear me like a locket around your throat
ill weigh you down, ill watch you choke
you look so good in blue, so good in blue"

i think you all know this one,Brandon Boyd.

"Still and transfixed
The electric sheep
are dreaming of your face
Enjoy you from the chemical
Comfort of America"

George Pettit. the one with think glasses and his tongue out =P

"sifting through weathered photo albums
looking for gloriously aged polaroids
of places you have never been.
a place to accept that you dont really exist.
smile for the camera sweet heart
i really want to immoralize this moment."

Deryck Whibley
dating some slut in hollywood. but still shexy.

"I cant sit back and wonder why
It took so long for this to die
and i hate it, when you fake it
you cant hide it, you might as well embrace it"

and the great, the geekily cute, Rivers Cuomo.
weezer man.

"I can't help my feelings, I'll go out of my mind
These players come to get me 'cause they'd like my behind
I can't love my business if I can't get a trick
Down on Santa Monica where tricks are for kids"

personally, i think rivers is the cutest. ^^
but tell me who u think.

what a positive update -

2004-07-16T01:14:33Z

everything keeps spirling. smitty likes mandie. gerry likes mandie. mandie likes kyle. caley likes kyle. tiffany likes mike. mike likes alyssa. everyone likes someone. lets go out and fuck and have fun. so yeah. i just keep my mouth shut about it. cause i dont really kno what i can and cannot say. becoming a recluse. not really. im not anything. just please keep smiling and giving me advice i really need it. cause you know how i cant deal myself. yeah. and nick staab's fuckin dumb. i sleep like 4 hours a night. and the days blur. so that's cool. summer school's real fun too. yeah. and im catholic. ... where is everyone today? i ended up hanging out with tiffany again and aly and smitty and jimmy. and bethany. yep. this is me signing off -goodnight rhode island.

when i was down came to me
and promised to always be
by my side, now your gone
and im waiting patiently.

hehe fill it out and put it in a comment

2004-07-10T16:24:02Z

01: what is your first memory of me:
02: how long have we been friends:
03: tell about one memory we share together:
04: describe me in four adjectives:
05: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
06: name one thing you really don't like about me:
07: name one thing you really do like about me:
08: if you could give me a gift what would it be:
09: have we ever gotten in a fight & about what:
10: have we ever hugged:
11: have we ever danced with each other:
12: have you ever seen me cry:
13: have i ever offended you:
14: what is something embarrassing that i've done:
15: what do i usually look like when you see me:
16: what do i say all the time\whats my catch phrase:
17: do you think we will be friends in 5 years:
18: do you think i am bitchy:
19: has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:
20: what advice would you give me, in general:
21: wanna make out:
22: suggest a band / cd for me to listen to:
23: is there a song that reminds you of me, and what is it:

jewls2189 @ 2004-07-09T14:40:00

2004-07-09T18:48:30Z

hey guys. since the last entry was kindof cynical, i didnt want to leave my live journal on a note like that. it seems now, that everyone i know, with the exception of kyle, has a livejournal. well it's fun. you know, bitching. and you dont really have to lay it all on one person, its just if people want to read what your doing or whats going on with you, they dont even have to ask, they could just read. technology rules. hehe. anyway, i got the rise against cd. revolutions per minute. apparently, they're coming out with a new one soon. which id like to get. oh, ive got a question for the lot of you. hamburgers. why are they called hamburgers? ashley thinks that ham is cow, but i always thought ham was pig. i seriously doubt my intelligence at this point. alright so yeah. blood red, white and blue is a good song. um. o yeah, i hung out with my tiffany yesterday. i was supposed to hang out with mandie and liane, but yeah that never happened. no one's really talked to tiff in a while, neither have i, i forgot she was off groundment. i love that girly. lia, that beast, kept walking in on our conversation and i kept forgetting what i was saying. good times with tiffany though. we ate cashews. i wonder where caley was .... havent seen her in a little while. i miss my quaz =[ oh well, i guess im going to go. i have to go "suit up" in a white button down blousse and black straight edge, i mean, straight leg pants. woo. work should be fun, its my first day. and theres this kid there, yeah hes kindof cute. so ta ta. love you all. ~44. Calibur Love Letter

pointlessness

2004-07-07T18:07:32Z

this journal has become more of a "what i did today" than a "how i feel" and i think thers a good reason for that. you guys read it. this isnt how my actual journal is. bc we all know there are things that we keep inside that we just dont say. and those are the things that should fill the pages of our journals. not nonsense like "hey today i hung out with this one and we did nothing." ah, what do i know. i went back and read some of the older entries. they're pretty dumb. i continue to think that this really doesnt matter. i could become a recluse, stop writing, and keep everything inside. i could become super bubbly and act phony and tell everyone everything to my own expense. either way, it wont matter. people dont remember what you say or what you do in high school. i feel like the barrer of bad news. and i probably spelt that wrong. but i dont care. i feel like it. and i feel like everything's spinning. things happen and people break up and things go on and it just happens over and over again. i dont even know who im talking about, who im talking to. theres no way to really explain this. i think we all have it at different points. worthlessness. the feeling of emptiness. repetitive conversations and no way to break the chain. what kind of selfish bitch talks about this. shouldnt i be talking about what im doing today, like totally. cause you know im going out to so many parties. lol caley. well anyways, ill be blunt. ive got no clue what im really talking about im just home alone and thats usually when i think up random, cynical thoughts. i guess ill go now. i feel stupid. ta ta.

hello lovelys

2004-07-03T06:05:15Z

hello beautiful. id just like to thank remo, mandie, caley, ashley, angela, jordan, ryan, and liane. i'd just like to let you guys know i love you and thank you for helping me feel better. when he's ready to come around, hell with it, people make mistakes. and you cant stay mad at someone like that.past is past. it's already past.every second, patching things up with chris gets lower and lower on my to do list. why should i be the one to make him realize. maybe someday when hes got a gun to his head and no one's there to call him and tell him to put it down, maybe then, if even then, he'll realize that i was the only friend he ever had. all these people he claims are the only ones there for him, were the same kids last week he was saying abandoned him. and how he doesnt feel right. doesnt feel like living. it just makes me sad if anything. i cant even take him seriously... cant even stay mad at him. and because you guys dont know him, or have probably ever talked to him, its hard to explain the quirky relationship we had. but i think the reason i really just dont like the whole thing is because im scared of permenance. i dont want to be the girl in "13 going on 30" who doesnt talk to the kid for 20 years because of some fight. and i dont want this to last forever, but im also not the one who arose this whole bullshit. im feeling especially stubborn. with things like: "all the freaks gays leazbians in this fuckin world shud be put in a 10 ft pit with gasoline and flamable shit and a match shud be thrown in fuck all you freaks" in chris's profile, im not feeling too apoligetic. thats a big pet peeve. normalness? who the hell are you to tell anyone who's normal. yoo shuddnt be doin dat. lol. but anyways, if i wanted to, right now, i think i could find the right words. i could make that kid feel pretty bad. but i shouldnt have to. does he have a conscience? i dont know. and typing more and more wont solve my issues, so there wont be anymore about that in here. i hung out with caley and manz today. lol, on the upside of things. me and caley hung out at her place, trying to convince mandie to come hang out with us. and eventually we annoyed her so much she's just like fine. so then we went there. and listening to tbs and talked to weird people online. then gerry nutini came by! and we had fun.. haha we just.. moped and then we went out for a spin and saw ducky and then back to manz. it was fun. me and caley are goign up to hog island with everyone, and ben boldt tomorrow at 1. manz cant go. heartache. but me and caley will have an ok time. im bringing my redsox blanket. nice and warm. sunday after getting back im hanging out at caleys with her manz and sara. maybe sleeping over if its okay with them. and me manz and her hanging out after the parade on the 5th. well, im gonna go, ive got some stupid appointment with tweets in the morning and im talking to kyle about some setlist. mwah.

jesus.

2004-07-01T23:10:21Z

fuck. i dont believe this. people fucking grow apart. i cant even keep it in anymore. this fucking kid, i love him to death, and he's pulling all this bullshit with me... i dont want things to just end like this and us to go our seperate ways. i dont want that. because basically i regret things the way they turned out with other people. i cant keep it in like this, i wish this never happened.

ananiac98: and you can go rite the fuck to hell
Mediocre   Amour: what
ananiac98: u no y fag mbye
ananiac98: bye*
Mediocre   Amour: k got that out of your system?
ananiac98: no im seirous u fuckin loser
Mediocre   Amour: why do you take the time out to im me if you dont want to talk to me
ananiac98: bcuz i figured id let you no i fuckin hate ypu
ananiac98: you*
Mediocre   Amour: you wanna be a dick go be a dick on your own time
Mediocre   Amour: it doesnt matter to me
Mediocre   Amour: i figure id let you know
ananiac98: o julie good thing that makes snce
Mediocre   Amour: your probably too stupid to get it
ananiac98: yea i gues the ppl im with are all 2 stupid to rite?
ananiac98: fuck you go to hell and have a good day
Mediocre   Amour: oh thats what this is all about
Mediocre   Amour: being cool.
ananiac98: peace bitch
ananiac98: no
Mediocre   Amour: bye christopher
Mediocre   Amour: you know it is
ananiac98: its about freaks running they mouth
ananiac98: ok
ananiac98: fuckin freak
Mediocre   Amour: stfu before you hurt yourself
ananiac98: wtf?
Mediocre   Amour: im a freak now
ananiac98: yea
Mediocre   Amour: good.
ananiac98: hang out with more gay ppl
Mediocre   Amour: atleast my friends arent assholes
ananiac98: how
ananiac98: mine are
ananiac98: shawn?
ananiac98: rob
ananiac98: ?
Mediocre   Amour: no,YOU ARE
ananiac98: justin
ananiac98: megan
ananiac98: chay
ananiac98: josh
Mediocre   Amour: i dont even fucking know those people
ananiac98: anthony
Mediocre   Amour: im talking about you, dipshit.
ananiac98: thas rite bcuz were normal and ur a freak
Mediocre   Amour: your normal?
Mediocre   Amour: haha.
ananiac98: ha ha .....
Mediocre   Amour: you're unbelievable.
ananiac98:
So is this better for you now that I am talking all proper so I can be normal?
Mediocre   Amour: arent those the fucking people you said abandoned you
ananiac98: fuckin fag.
Mediocre   Amour: and that i was your only friend
Mediocre   Amour: your so dumb
ananiac98: guess not
ananiac98: if u run ur mouth
Mediocre   Amour: i run my mouth?
ananiac98: and maybe we did chill for a while but they dont talk shit
ananiac98: see and u dont back shit up
ananiac98: fuck you
Mediocre   Amour: back shit up
Mediocre   Amour: um yeah
ananiac98: u think this is a song
Mediocre   Amour: no, really, i dont see what your getting at
Mediocre   Amour: but thats cool.
ananiac98: yea so r ur commas and periods.
Mediocre   Amour: sorry i talk right.
ananiac98: wut r u in english class?
Mediocre   Amour: you're really going to let music get in the fucking way of a friendship. seriously.
ananiac98: what the fuck r u talkin about
ananiac98: music?
Mediocre   Amour: you know thats it
Mediocre   Amour: im a freak now?
Mediocre   Amour: how so
ananiac98: yo u were a freak last year fag
ananiac98: i jus didnt care i cud careless how you are but talk shit then thas wen i use it all on you
Mediocre   Amour: alright, then why you talking to a freak it might tarnish your ghetto reputation
ananiac98: o fuck that bullshit
Mediocre   Amour: talking shit? what are you talking about jess?
ananiac98: wow
ananiac98: comin around?
Mediocre   Amour: she is. shes a ho.
ananiac98: see about time u had the balls to start talkin shit 2 sumone
ananiac98: who cares
Mediocre   Amour: she told me !
Mediocre   Amour: she knows.
Mediocre   Amour: she said im going to try and change.
Mediocre   Amour: and i said, thats good for you jessica.
ananiac98: bcuz freaks are fags and ur a fag so ur a freak fag
ananiac98: keep using fuckin periods
ananiac98: and get all ur freak friends afta me
ananiac98: i wana fite 2 nite
Mediocre   Amour: and its not like we arent on good terms, so i dont know what your trying to start up
Mediocre   Amour: chris just stop
ananiac98: bcuz thass all u feel like doin is talkin about having ur freak friends woop my ass
ananiac98: so have em go to the carnival
ananiac98: and we can see
Mediocre   Amour: stop
ananiac98: me and my normal friends against your freaks
Mediocre   Amour: wow.
Mediocre   Amour: i never thought youd stoop so low.
ananiac98: go hang out with coreyell
ananiac98: and jessie perry
ananiac98: and kyle andrade
ananiac98: and kyle santos
ananiac98: and mj
ananiac98: all the freaks
Mediocre   Amour: your fucking dumb
Mediocre   Amour: its kyle andree
Mediocre   Amour: and i dont hang out with coryelle
Mediocre   Amour: OR jesse perry
ananiac98: yea read my pro
Mediocre   Amour: and just a question, who was there for you the only one on the fucking phone calling you to make sure you were alright when you fucking wanted to kill yourself
ananiac98: 2 bad i didnt
ananiac98: so i aint got to even see freaks
Mediocre   Amour: whatever.
Mediocre   Amour: i cant even believe your serious
ananiac98: no i joke about all this shit
Mediocre   Amour: your not joking dont pull that shit now
ananiac98: r u bullshiting?
ananiac98: i was fucking jokuin about jokin
ananiac98: i meen this shit bitch
Mediocre   Amour: im not fucking bullshitting
Mediocre   Amour: good
Mediocre   Amour: cause so do it
ananiac98: o ur shit makes no sence bcuz ur a freak that theres no fuckin posible way to insult u more than u make your self sound retarded
Mediocre   Amour: im the retarded one? you cant even spell your.
Mediocre   Amour: y-o-u-r
ananiac98: o put a period
Mediocre   Amour: what are you on yours
Mediocre   Amour: fuckin asshole
ananiac98: just end it
Mediocre   Amour: you first cutie
ananiac98: im claping
Mediocre   Amour: haha
ananiac98: mwahahahahhahahah
ananiac98: a
Mediocre   Amour: alright..
ananiac98: o have your freak friends rite a book 2 me
Mediocre   Amour: drop it chris
ananiac98: well she aint
Mediocre   Amour: good
ananiac98: and wut am i droping?
Mediocre   Amour: this fucking shit you keep bringing up again
ananiac98: fuck all yous
Mediocre   Amour: yeah kid
Mediocre   Amour: thats it, really, take out your anger on me.
Mediocre   Amour: cause i know, you hate me so much.
ananiac98: fuck off
Mediocre   Amour: aww.
ananiac98: wut the fuck u awwing about
Mediocre   Amour: i just think its cute how your trying to impress your friends
ananiac98: im with so many 2
ananiac98: megan
ananiac98: she aint a friend ne wayz fag
ananiac98: she family
Mediocre   Amour: oh aint that great.
Mediocre   Amour: o thats peachy keen jelly bean
ananiac98: o shuve that
Mediocre   Amour: haha
Auto response from ananiac98: fuck all you godam mutherfucking freaks

..well im a tired loser

2004-06-27T06:55:15Z

Past:
childhood bestfriend? elizabeth
did you play with barbies?: hahaha yeah. i had the house and all.
were you a tomboy?: nope.
did you watch power rangers?: i was the pink one!
did you have imaginary friends?: no, i never did that
doesn't play-dough taste good?: you would think i'd get it the first time i tasted it and it sucked
did you actually sleep during nap time?: yeah i did. i slept a lot. lazy bum
did you ever get married at recess?:oh hell yeah. matt, cameron, timmy, i was pimpin.
did you make turkey's out of your hand print?: in the younger grades yup

Present:
where do you go to school?: mt hope high school
what do you like to do?: it’s hard to explain. i do… stuff. and i like it like that.
where do you go on the weekends?: friend’s usually.
who are your good friends?: they know.
how many people are on your buddy list?: 144
do you enjoy chick flicks?: it has to have a plot besides “she loves him and she cant have him”
do you have a signifigant other?: yeah ok, nice to meet you i'm 14.
do you like high school drama?: who answers that question with a yes? i mean really. even if they love it they’ll never admit it, they’re silly like that.
favorite subject?: i liked history a lot.
what is your favorite song?: can i list some? please? ok. hash pipe, cavalier eternal, one of a kind, no rain, pinch me, photograph, let me down and failure by design
favorite drink?: hazelnut xtra xtra ice (preferably sip n dip)
favorite food?: green jello.
future? where do i see myself? oh, definetly in the ghetto somewhere.
where do you want to live?: not here.
do you want to get married?: i dont know. it depends how great he is.
do you want children?: not really.
natural or adopted?: i said no, and no means no.
what do you want to do?: i dont know. i see myself being some human psychology professor.
where is the one place you must visit before you die?: grand canyon at sunset.
do you want to be cremated or embalmed?: cremated. save the space for dead presidents and stuff.
donate your body to science?: you cant donate your body to science and be cremated. so no.
how would you like to die?: that's a creepy question.
do you believe in heaven and hell?: i was raised christian. but lately, i dont believe in church but i believe in god which is confusing, even i dont know.

About You:
your full name: Julie.
age: 14
height: 5'3
hair color: dark
natural hair colour: dark
eye color: brown
number of siblings: one
glasses/contacts?: no.
piercings: five, all in my ears though.
tattoos: no. im getting sick of that word.
braces?: funny you say that, they're coming off next tuesday.

Favorite:
color: lime green/teal
band: i like brand new alot. and fall out boy and something corporate and catch 22. but there are so many bands i like. god.
stuffed animal: a frog my mom got me in the hospital gift shop when i was sick with menangitus
video game: sims, gtr3, gtr vice city, spiral!
tv show: simpsons? i dont know, i hardly watch tv.
movie: i really do like adam sandler, and im sorry mandie. but hes great. pretty much anything with him or josh hartnett
book: speak, summer of fear,
game on a cell phone: bowling!
cd cover: i like the rainbows and prisms on dark side of the moon
flower: lillies
scent:: clean. i like the smell of mint... haha, but not for a body odor
animal: animals are alright, i just dont ..... never mind, camel.
comic book: dont read them,
cereal: golden grahams
website: http://foblove.switchblade-infidelity.net/main.html
cartoon: i thought i answered this with the 'i dont watch tv' thing

Do You:
play an instrument?: i just picked up guitar. but im learning still, so really, i would still say im in the suck stage.
watch tv more than sixty hours a week?: yeah right. online, maybe... tv, pfft. no.
like to sing?: its one of those things i cant do but i do it anyways
have a job?: ok! i got laid off!
have a cell phone?: yeah
like to play sports?: no. i use the tv for that. oh yeah! i do watch tv! red sox games. and movies too.
have a boyfriend?: rub it in, i cant taste it yet.
have a crush on someone?: i wouldnt say a crush.. more of a your hot id like to get to know you thing
live somewhere not in the u.s? i live in the us...
have more than 5 tvs in your house?: two! and ones in the living room and ones in my room. i dont even watch tv.
have any special talents/skills?: haha... i can hold my breath underwater for over a minute
excercise daily?: what, weekly, monthly? maybe monthly. i walk to the fridge.
like school?: im glad we're out.

Can You:
sing the alphabet backwards?: no, i always tried though. give me points.
stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: yeah! i can do that i can do that!
speak any other languages?: te odio. (it means i hate you in spanish)
go a day without food?: yeah. im not caley nassar jesus.
stay up for more than 24 hours?: done it. haha CHECK
read music, not just tabs?: yes i can
roll your tongue?: yea
eat a whole pizza?: i just did, one made for a single person though.

Have You Ever:
snuck out of the house?: yes. to tylers. and i didnt get caught!
cried to get out of trouble?: all the time!
gotten lost in your city?: no, cant say ive done that one.
seen a shooting star?: yes. it was magical like disney.
been to any other countries besides the united states?: nope, havent been west of the mississippi
had a serious surgery?: no i have not
stolen something important to someone else?: jordans ticket stub to the montys fan club show
solved a rubiks cube?: no, i hate those things. i just get frustrated with them.
gone out in public in your pajamas?: yeah, did it exams.
cried over a girl?: cried because of something a girl did, yes.
cried over a boy?: i have no weakness. alright, yes.
kissed a random stranger?: no, aids? come on.
hugged a random stranger?: yeah
been in a fist fight?: no
been arrested?: once. just once.
done drugs?: (mom)- are you doing things you shouldnt be?! why are you so hungry? want some baskin robins? are your eyes bloodshot? haha tiff.
had alcohol?: ok yeah
laughed and had milk come out of your nose? why would you ask that. god, brings back memories.
pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: nope
gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday? no
swore at your parents?: yes. and im sorry.
kicked a guy where it hurts?: ive punched. but no, kicking is mean.
been in love?: i dont know, nothing that had me crying for more than a month, so i guess not.
been close to love?: no. stick to the i really like u thing, but it just sounds corny so people say i love you.
been to a casino?: with my grandma!
ran over an animal and killed it?: my mom killed a squirrel one time.
broken a bone?: nope
gotten stitches?: nope
had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: watergun fight. haha.
drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?: thats a trick question. its impossible. me and my cousin sarah tried it one time and we puked miserably
made homemade muffins?: some sundays with mom
bitten someone?: no but ive had my hand chewed off cause kyle *im stupid* andree was hungry
been to disneyland/disneyworld?: yes
more than 5 times?: no
been to niagra falls?: no, but id love to see it.
burped in someones face?: ive witnessed it. it gets ugly.
gotten the chicken pox?: yes ma'm, twice.

Whens the Last Time You:
brushed your teeth: two hours. give me a break its 2:02 pm.
went to the bathroom: howd you know? i just got up.
saw a movie in theaters: dodgeball with alex.
read a book: so long ago i dont remember. summer reading? last summer.....
had a snow day: last year, 8th grade..
had a party: just got back from a family shin dig today.
had a slumber party: last night with ashley
made fun of someone: um.. caley. i was horrible. called her a hunchback, terribly sorry. i couldnt control myse---- hunchback!
tripped in front of someone: i do that, alot.
went to the grocery store: i hate when mom makes me go
got sick: awhile ago
cursed: its late now, back when everyone was online, so like 4 hours. wow, i need to swear.

Pick One:
Fruit/vegetables: fruity tootie
Black/white: black! just kidding, white's nice. white and black are nice together.
Lights on/lights off: off. with a disco ball on. haha
tv/movie: definetly movie. i hate tv. yeah thats like the 5th time ive said it.
car/truck: car.
body spray/lotion: body spraw
cash/check: cash, easier
pillows/blankets: u need both.
headache/stomach pain: o u need both of those too. haha, just kidding. i dont know, they both suck.
chinese food/mexican food: chinese
summer/winter: summer
snow/rain: rain
fog/misty: misty
rock/rap: rock
meat/vegetarian: meat
boy/girl: for what? sex or frienship?
chocolate/vanilla: vanilla
sprinkles/icing: icing
cake/pie: pie
french toast/french fries: french fries
strawberries/blueberries: bloo
ocean/swimming pool: ocean
hugs/kisses: kisses
cookies/muffins: cookies
penis/boobs: ....penis? im straight. stop trying.
wallet/pocket: i keep my $ in pocket incase you know, you'd like to mug me there's no use in taking a wallet that doesnt exsist
window/door: windows u can see through! unless its a glass door...
emo/goth: whats this? another label for you people? so what... its like saying choose one for your friend. highly flammable or toxic.
pink/purple: they're both stupid
cat/dog: cat
long sleeve/short sleeve: short
pants/shorts: pants
winter break/spring break: spring break
spring/autumn: autumn
clouds/clear sky: clouds
moon/mars: mars is bright red. come on, the moon is just yellow. look at yourself pee if you want to see yellow. but then again....ew.

Friendship:
how many friends do you have?: do you mean that people that pretend to be or the people that actually are? actually? like 10.
what are their names?: simple. mandie, tiffany, liane, caley, kyle, mike, ashley, alex, sherrie, hillary
do you have a best friend?: yes. but if i say who, you'll get all mad. i just love you all ok.
have you ever liked one of your friends?: seems like its always one of my friends..
do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?: its like 60% girls and 40% guys
have you ever lost a friend?: yeah. one.
have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?: yup. six flags. with eli.
whats an inside joke between you and a friend?: you're on the outside, sorry, try again.
have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?: yes. its sad when you care what happens next and they dont seem to.
whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?: ive done some stuff. but recently, ive stayed up late for kyle and just talked to him cause he needed someone to talk to at the time.
whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?: they dont realize it, but they make me happy
do you miss any of your old friends?: ...[thinking]..... i miss them occasionally, and i really was sorry things turned out the way they did, and now people not talking to people, but you see, ive tried. and i cant try anymore to please people and suck up to them just so things will be okay between us. long ago i was done with the stupid games and the back and forth bullshit. things dont seem to end, so im just going to ignore it.
what friend have you known the longest?: elizabeth, bethany, tori, matt
how often do you spend time with your friends?: alot
do any of your friends drive?: well ducky trucks everyone around
has a friend of yours ever died?: justin, matt.
whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?: too many to say, me and alex running around sandy and soggy and growing stuff. skinny dipping, with a.. tyler..falling off of a trampoline
what do you think your friends think of you?: WHY DONT THEY COMMENT AND TELL ME :-) (not like anyone will.)

Love and All That Crap:
have you ever been in love?: how many times you going to ask me this. no, no no no no no no no
if you have, with who?: NO!
are you single?: yes
are you in a relationship?: isnt that the same question?
if so, for how long?: just shut up
do you believe there is someone for everyone?: not at all.
what is your idea of the best date?: near a large rock that overlooks the bay. with a willow tree and candles on the trunks. sandy toes, and a fading sunset
what was your first kiss like?: pressuring, all wrong, and distgusting
how old were you when you got your first kiss?: 11?0
do you think love is a load of shit?: sometimes.
if you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?: yes
have you ever been dumped?: yes
have you ever dumped someone?: yes
whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?: nothing beyond making out

Word Association:
slippers: christmas, blue.
hat: red sox
hard: ignorant
free: sams club
space: break up
taste: umyay
good charlotte: seriously?
red: blood
deep: intensity
heart: cracks
cord: baby
cheese: dinner
rain: spiderman
work: sucks
pedal: to the metal
head: dick
bed: blanket
fluff: smores
hardcore: diogo
race: loose
knife: heart
jump: fall

I....
am: intrigued.
want: anything
need: closure
crave: peanuts
love: my friends
hate: pointlessness
did: nothing important all day
feel: calmed
miss: mandie, and tiffany
am annoyed by: people
would rather: be sleepng
am tired of: fighting
will always: be me

Silly Stuff:
what is your favourite genre of music?: punk acoustic, emo, ska
what time is it now?: 2:38 pm!
what day is it?: sunday now
whens the last time you called someone?: in the car ride home. tiffany.
how much money do you have right now?: 75 cents that i had last night.
are you hungry?: very. but no no to junk food.
whatcha doin?: look at the scroll bar, this things almost done.
do you like parades?: they kindof suck
do you like the moon?: i love it. the sky can be fascinating at night when there's no clouds
what are you going to do when youre done with this?: probably read it over change some things and go to bed
isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?: haha, do you always drink out of that cup? well i think its funny. where's your cup chris?
if you could have any magical power what would it be?: read minds. but be able to turn it off or on when i want
have you ever had a picnic?: come to think of it, on the ground, with a basket, no.
did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?: a what?
what about sock em boppers?: yeah i had a blue one
are you wearing any socks right now?: yep, my mom got me "fourth of july socks" haha

Associate These Words
With Someone You Know:
high: amanda   (just because guy.)
skip: tiffany    (skipping down aisles at botb)
dance: caley    (cause she cant)
lonely: gerry   (says so in his profile)
pen: augie     (always let me borrow pens in 7th)
flower: tori    (she wore one in her hair once)
window: ashley    (watched secret window with her the other day)
psycho: liane    (cause she is)
brain freeze: hillary    (cause shed do that)
orange: sherrie            (cause shes a hippie)
sassy: mandie         (cause shes mandie and she is)
jello: kyle          (cause he thinks reds better than green and its not)

For or Against:
suicide: totally against. you dont even think about what you do to people you fuck them over.
love: for
drunk drivers: against
airplanes: for
canada: against! just kidding, im not sure
united states: and im proud to be an american...
rock music: for
gay marriage: your happy.
school: for
surveys: against. dont ask. im bored, alright. i really just think they're dumb. they always ask u the same thing.
parents: well when your mom acts like shes bi polar its hard to answer that, sometimes im for sometimes im against totally
cars: for
killing: against
britney spears: against
coffee: for
pants: against! haha

Would You Ever:
sky dive?: yes
play strip poker?: yeah
run away?: haha, the further the better
curse at a teacher?: no, but id be mean to them.
not take a shower for a week?: i dont think so. unless you gave me a millon hehe
lie to someone to make them think better of you?: and then tell them they're stupid for believing you and that your really just stupid? haha yeah, id do that
visit a foreign country for more than a month?: if i could bring two friends. (in case i get mad at one while there)
go scuba diving?: all for it
write a book?: only if im ensured it doesnt suck before i put it out
become a rockstar?: girls...eh.. i dont mean to be sexist, im all for girls on guitar and stuff but lead singers, no.
have casual sex?: haha, yes

Last Questions:
what shampoo do you use?: herbal essences. pink.
what kind of computer do you have?: dell
what grade are you in?: 9 1/2
do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: o yeah
or just make out?: make out at home! common!
how many posters do you have in your room?: five?
how many cds do you have?: 30ish
what time is it now?: 2:52

this is a very very very very very very VERY VERY long survery. alright, you will never take another survey this long ever again in your life. i dont even blame you if you dont read it. you should though, and fill out yours too. eventually, when u can. warning: this took me two hours to complete. please just read it and comment, itd make me feel awfully swell.

jewls2189 @ 2004-06-26T21:13:00

2004-06-27T01:35:00Z

ok ok im going to update this stupid thing before i forget the details of the last three days. on thursday me and caley hung out in the afternoon, we walked everywhere! like social people! we got veronica and we tried to get alex johns but she wasnt home. and then we walked on down to alan's house to get mine and ash's tickets for friday. and then we walked all the way back to my house, met some lady, played some shitty song and walked over to..... KYLES HOUSE! (haha tricked you)... yeah, smitty, alex, carlton, and later jimmy were there w me caley n kyle. carlton and alex kept going at it, they were making me mad. then that asshole said something about phips and i was like dood, shut up. but then after that he was nice, so that's alright. he's ok with me. but him and carlton kept insulting each other. so i just ignored them and listened to hash pipe. then the next day, i did nothing. yup, nothing. UNTIL! caley called! and she's like ok im coming over and then i says ok and then jordan came over and then ashley and we all went to the montys show. traffic was a bitch. hahaha... so kyle, mike, ducky, gerry, mike z, hannah, jay, sam, caley, alan, steve, jordan, ashley and i were the ones there. yeah i know, a lot of people. so senior discount was on first, they were good, i like them. and i love wendys song ,and ataxia. haha, i swear it ill kill you, i swear ill fucking kill you.... then the lingo was on. (everyone sat out, it was socialization slash toenail plucking time) i just didnt like the whole keyboard thing going on. but then! the superspecs saved the day! and they were pretty damned good. i didnt know any of they're songs, but i went on their site today. and then montys came on... and we were standing right in the middle.... me, caley, ashley, kyle, alan, and mike. mike was being positive.

mike:"we're all going to die"
mike: "have you guys ever been in a montys pit? it gets crazy. im warning you."
mike:"so yeah, we're all going to die"

ill admit, i did get shoved and punched and prodded alot. i fell a few times, one of them on alan. it's cool how everyone helps you up.. sometimes they do atleast. other times they just continue skanking all over you. so anyways, that was the show. they "ended" with hearts bleeding.. and everyone thought it was over, so they left, but then they played another song! SUCKERS! haha, so me ashley jordan alan caley and kyle were the ones left. it was all in all, great. ta ta.

jewls2189 @ 2004-06-25T15:28:00

2004-06-25T20:08:04Z

If I were a month I would be: september
If I were a day of the week I would be: thursday
If I were a time of day I would be: 6pm/sunset
If I were a planet I would be: saturn
If I were a sea animal I would be: seal
If I were a direction I would be: South
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: reclining comfy chair (haha)
If I were a sin I would be: adultery.. but i love god anyways so no
If I were a historical figure I would be: mick jagger
If I were a liquid I would be: ice liquid
If I were a stone, I would be: ruby
If I were a tree, I would be: weeping willow
If I were a bird, I would be: finch
If I were a tool, I would be: tape dispenser
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: lily
If I were a kind of weather I would be: misty
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: oompa loompa
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: triangle
If I were an animal, I would be: camel
If I were a color, I would be: faded green
If I were an emotion, I would be: passion
If I were a vegetable, I would be: green beans
If I were a sound, I would be: waves crashing
If I were an element, I would be: magnesium
If I were a car, I would be: i know nothing about cars. volvo. haha
If I were a song, I would be: against me- cavalier eternal
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: steven spielberg. only guy i know.
If I were a book, I would be written by: JRR Tolkien
If I were a food, I would be: peanuts
If I were a place, I would be: moonlit path
If I were a material, I would be: lace
If I were a taste, I would be: tangy
If I were a scent, I would be: love spell
If I were a religion, I would be: athiest
If I were a word, I would be: vintage
If I were a body part I would be: eyes
If I were a facial expression I would be: bittersweet smile
If I were a subject in school I would be: human relations
If I were a cartoon character I would be: susie
If I were a shape I would be an: pentagon
If I were a number I would be: 5

this one's different, and i like it.
some of the answers i couldnt think of so whatever.

going to see montys fan club, senior discount, superspecs and the lingo tonight. with thumbo quazzi and mop. haha thats ashley, caley and jordan. fyi. anyways. today was interesting.

drink down that gin and kerosine

what....

2004-06-24T02:25:03Z

so ive been doing.. idk, random things. i went and hung out with alan and steve and jordan the other day, at his mom/dad's. interesting. then i slept over thumbo's house. she's got a nice house. and shes adorable i love her. i wake up, and shes in the other room... "why are you on this computer" .. "i didnt want to wake you up" :) she's too good to me. she listens to me bitch, i listen to her bitch, it works out. after getting dropped off at jamiels (ashley works there) i went and hung out with alex, she lives down the street from jamiels. and i got a sign that says warren ave! me and aj went to rods and delektas like fatso's and then to the dollar store, and to see DODGEBALL! we thought it was going to be lame, but it was funny. and after that we hung out with the fam (consisting of amber, jacob, caleb, dylan and ethan) and that was interesting. alex started to like them, i could tell. she's adorable too. and that's where i am now. writing an entry. talking to ashley and jordan and thats it.... actually, come to think of it... why isnt anyone imming me. i got a bad feeling. well whatever, i dont know. :( bye ... hello? oh, alright bye julie.

One Of A Kind
these last few weeks there's been
lots of talk about the past
about the true loves we've all lost
and the ones we've never had
vicariously reliving the pain
of saying goodbye to you
has left me wondering exactly
what you've been up to

-Much The Same